Bad Brains

So I haven’t posted anything new in a while, and I feel like I should explain why.

At the end of last month I was told I did not have the right to write about mental health. I was also accused of being an addict because I take medication for my anxiety disorder. The combination of these two things threw me into a total crazy brains period. I got complete writers block and I have hardly been able to write a word for the past three weeks.

Now I know that I shouldn’t let other people get to me that much, but I began to question everything about myself. I learned some things from this three weeks of extreme crazy. The first being that I can write about whatever I want. I also learned that while I depend on my medication I don’t want to be on it forever. Finally and most importantly though, I learned that I am not an addict. I am a person living with a mental illness. I can live without medication, I am not afraid of being crazy, I am not afraid of my emotions. I choose to manage my disease in a way that is socially acceptable, and I am taking steps to reduce the use of medication and go back to managing my anxiety in more healthy ways.

Exercise, beating out a song on my guitar, drawing, and most importantly writing. I am a writer, and if I remember to use the tools I have as an emotional outlet then I will be able to live the life I want and not be blinded by other people’s views and interpretations of me. I have to do things my way. We all have to do things our own way, if we don’t then we don’t heal.

In conclusion I hope to be posting regularly again in August. I will be in Europe for the next two weeks, and I’m not sure how much opportunity I will have to post. Thanks for reading.

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2 thoughts on “Bad Brains”

  1. Whoever called you an addict for taking your medication is the crazy person in the conversation. Would he or she call a diabetic an addict for taking insulin? You can absolutely write whatever you want, whenever you want, especially in your own blog. When I first started my blog, I had this idea that it had to have a theme and every post had to have a clear and perfectly articulated connection to that theme. Until I got over that idea, I didn’t post very often. I’m a lot happier now, and I write better blog posts.

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    1. The person who said that was trying to be helpful, but it still messed with my head. The other one wants me to focus only on my music and thinks it’s a waste of my time to write about anything else. I like writing whatever I feel like. When I write how I feel I tend to have better posts and more to say.

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